why you should choose love and not choose an affection

cinta itu hanya semalam tetapi kasih sayang akan selamanya
cinta itu hanya kata dalam setiap lisan tetapi kasih sayang akan menjadi kata dalam setiap doa
cinta itu hanya kepuasan semata tetapi kasih sayang akan menjadi kepuasan seamalnya
cinta itu hanya kamu milikku tetapi kasih sayang akan menjadi kamu imam pemimpin hidupku

            yang abadi itu bukan cinta tetapi kasih sayang, karna kasih sayang tidak akan merelakan dirinya hanya sendiri
            yang suci itu bukan cinta tetapi kasih sayang, karna kasih sayang tidak akan membuat dirinya menjadi kotor
           yang menyatukan itu bukan cinta tetapi kasih sayang, karna kasih sayang terdiri dari 2 kata dan akan menjadi satu makna
          yang jujur itu bukan cinta tetapi kasih sayang, karna kasih sayang akan selalu bersama tanpa kebohongan

   tahukah anda bagaimana merasakan kasih sayang bukan merasakan cinta?
   tahukah anda bagaimana melengkapi kasih sayang bukan melengkapi cinta?
   anda mungkin heran bagaimana seseorang lebih mendambakan sebuah kata cinta
dibanding dengan kata kasih dan sayang 

        nyatanya yang berhati mulia hanyalah berdasarkan kasih sayang bukan cinta
        nyatanya yang berilmu hanyalah berdasarkan kasih sayang bukan cinta 

       dan nyatanya kasih dan sayang akan menjadi sebuah kata yang mendefinisikan suatu hubungan kita.

mungkin ini sebuah kiasan perumpamaan yang mendasarkan kenyataan.
dan tahukah anda seseorang terluka?

tahukan anda seberapa hinanya diri ini dengan kata cinta?sadarkah anda saat ini anda sedang memegang teguh kepercayaan seseorang yang menyayangi anda?demi anda, demi masa depannya dan demi orangtuanya.dalam doa berkabut keiklasan berharap mendapatkan kasih sayang dalam doanya memaparkan kasih dan sayang dalam harinya 
arrigatou gozaimasu.

BIOGRAPHY

 Great experiences should be valued like silver,
 every day is as precious as a box of gold.
 If we only lived in this moment and made the most of it,
 we would experience joy, peace and love untold.
 ~ Raphael Notch~ 

 An expression of the life of Raphael Notch through poems same as what has been said by late her paternal grandfather Silvi that not easy to worry about tomorrow and regret yesterday. Take advantage today and live in the present moment to a happy and successful life, make a dream come true on today and don’t think any of us can be a risk and do not be afraid to dreaming. She named SILVIANA DWI AGINDRASWARI you can call silvi, she was born in the city of Samarinda precisely on January 23, 1994, born to the Wasis agung pujiono and Iin Indrawati. she has 3 brothers and 1 sister. her brother who first named is Raditya indra agung pratama he was born on February 21, 1992. he has a shortage of mental retardation circumstances, this situation is also known as mental retardation and can also be called mentally disabled, mentally disabled persons will not be easy to talk to even though the desire to bigger socialize with mentally disabled , elder brother this retardation experienced since he was born, a small silvi very close to her elder brother because they age are simply different 2 years, silvi also has a brother different 2 years, her named is Librian ardi pamungkas he was born on October 06, 1996. small librian very close to his mother even made a small silvi jealous with his behavior, silvi wanted sister him to ask her parents when to have a sister, when his mother was pregnant, silvi very hopeful child in the mother's stomach is a woman after waiting 9 months with various barriers mother gave birth to a child but not girls but boys, female gave birth to a struggle and patience of parents, youngest brother named Dirga Suryanata he was born on August 28, 2002. when Dirga born ASI of their mother can’t come out so Dirga should drink coconut water for a week for a replacement ASI, silvi very love of her brothers and her sister because of when they little, his mother leaving they to working and silvi stay with they when she not school, silvi mother worked as a housekeeper and her father is an garbage man and, after 3 years silvi mother have a daughter, a little girl named Tiara Chessa she was born on may 12, 2005. the name like cheese because silvi’s family like a cheese birth tiara also welcomed the joy of late tiara was born when the waters have dried up in their mother's womb. when silvi childhood can be said to be inadequate infancy, his father, who worked as a garbage man and his mother who worked as a housekeeper very easy street, playing with whatever is in the environment even friends his age was a boy, he even rarely play with girls, transportation also rare status by year 1998-2000 from learning and through economic means very different with now Silvi very love watching animated films he confessed can to spend 24 hours to watch his favorite anime and continued until now in 1999 he is very fond of animation titled Digimon. This is the cover of her favorite animated film :
  Besides the her childhood when watching his favorite animated movie is playing outside with their peers, and helped her mother sell grandmother, watching roadside crowded public vehicles and big buildings around it, grow up dreaming when he wants to do and how later life Silvi small has now grown up age and behavior have changed but silvi still love animated films and plays, when she was in junior high at school silvi still friends with a boy dressed up was the same way with the boys. and when in a vocational high school she majored in tourism from where he can hang out with his friends and get new friends who have never met him in school and at home is the best friend when he was still attending vocational school. hanging out with street children and the like, the friends have sekitanya Playing the wrong way in their problems, smoking and drinking, but silvi not follow his actions, she thought if he did the same with his then his mother will be sad and hurt. when silvi have graduated from high school he wanted to go to a higher level but outside the island of Borneo, silvi learn a lot from each book and the Internet, the goal is Brawijaya university faculty of tourism, he enrolled in the brawijaya university's online test then take a test online and offline brawijaya in balikpapan city, after he passed the test at Brawijaya, his father said that he does not have to left as his parents, his father wanted silvi continue their education in Kalimantan, his father wanted him to study and get to know the outside world but his father thought how much will it cost and how much risk to bear, ayaknya now works as a civil servant in one of the government samarinda city, her father is a stubborn nature is not wrong if it is spoken by his son like father like son is the word that fits for her and his father, then silvi decided to work and pay for school with his income, silvi also enroll in university enrollment Widyagama one of the first universities in Kalimantan by taking the English faculty, she began to think to learn basic English language then it will be close to the his ideals and when the rain came down test performed and the number of applicants was only 10 he still take the test and pass the test well, silvi see his test results accompanied by his mother and his best friend celebrated

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It is she and his best friends ^^ 

The university Widyagama he got friends from different character and from all walks of life and she has a new family in addition to his family home, the ups and downs, tolerance, working together consultative meeting and brotherhood that they have built in class families that strengthen and encourage each other to study

   

This she and her large family 3A in breaking fast together, Islam and Christian attended this event

 in 1999-2000 silvi was school at kindergarten tut wurihandayani, samarinda 

 in 2000-2006 silvi was school at primary school 003, samarinda

 in 2006-2009 silvi was school at the junior high school 22, samarinda

 in 2009 - 2012 silvi was school at vocational high school 3 samarinda

 in 2012- now silvi school at the university Widyagama, samarinda

            Now she is working and studying to Achieve her purpose and got her wish as a tour guide and a teacher, she hopes to speak fluent English to support her ideals, there is no time to play. morning till evening she spend at work and in the evening when she went to college, silvi just vacationing in the weekend to relax even she had to wait her homework completion in the morning. In the future she wants is to graduate from college and can be a tour guide in a small craving since she thought the tour guide is a challenging job and do not need to be afraid of anything and in any situation whatsoever, so make amazed with the work as it

Lembaran iseng

INI SUKA INI DUKA Dalam suka aku melayang dalam duka terbang melangkah awan, ketika semua hilang .. Akankah aku memiliki tujuan untuk bersama, dalam salam aku bersandar dalam ilmu aku membayang dan dalam hati aku bercanda Bersenda gurau dengan hati yg sendu, sewindu kulewat dalam bayangan akan kehadiran, kehadiran tanpa menghasilkan keinginan untuk melayang keawan. Akankah hadirmu membuat ini berlalu? Apankah semua ini akan membuat sendu dan menghakimi setiap insan? Apakah ada rasa kerinduan didalam keaslian keindahan dunia yg menghasilkan ikatan abadi? INI SUKA INI DUKA Aku suka kamu dalam duka, dalam ikatan tanpa air mata bak bencana peluntur luka, hanya pinta yg sejajar dengan kehendak dan rasa memiliki bak aungan serigala pengalih keheningan memecahkan kebisingan dan memberi kesan arogan. INI SUKA INI DUKA Duka yg selalu aku pendam, untuk memihak perasaan yg salah, akankan sendu ini berkabu? Akankan sesal ini berlalu dan akankan rasa ini berlabu? Dukaku sukamu, airmataku senyumanmu dan pintaku adalah teriak bahagiamu, kebahagiaan yg sampai saat inipun membuatku tak beranjak darimu, keterbatasan memeluk attensi bumi, keterbatasan memegang kendali alam. Kasih, dengan secarik kertas aku berpilu kesah dengan keadaan kita. sayang, dengan semanis asa ku pecahkan derita kisah jarak antara kita. cinta, sebening mata memandang membuat luka tergores akan keelokan bahasa isyarat dan bahasa hati yang kita bina Kau bagaikan komet di lubang hitam, tersembunyi, sendiri, dan mati. Ketika semu memandang awan dan ketika awan telah lelah memandang, wajahmu tak lelah bagai mentari Hapuskanlah luka di hati terimalah bayangan semu ini membuat semua berharap dalam kesemuan, agar semua terpaku dalam ke aroganan jiwa membuat hati lelah berkata tidak, membuat hati lelah melihat angan dan membuat hati tak kuasa meronta keabadian

pseudo

Love is a shadow pseudo Love is cinta Like is suka Bagai bayangan semu di gelapnya malam yg terang dan membayangi indahnya impian yang seakan nyata Membuat lupa akan segalanya Bagai kopi di pagi hari yg melekat dalam tubuh dan membayang dalam lidah Bagai himpunan bilangan bulat yg membingunkanku Bagai kehilangan sedikit nyali kecilku dan membuat ku hilang dalam ketakutan Aku suka kamu, kamu bayangan semuku Aku sayang kamu, kamu penyemangat mimpiku Mimpi yang tak akan menjadi nyata dan membuatmu bahagia Ini cinta ini suka ini derita ini cerita Cerita kita cerita pinta cerita tiada muka Suka sukar dan berakhir pertengkaran Membusuk dalam hati dan bermimpi dalam khayalan ini Semu itu kamu, kamu adalah bayangan ku

DINA

Dina ..

iya dia gadis yg cantik, imut lucu dan menggemaskan, meskipun aku tak terlalu kenal dengannya

dia adalah panutan setiap insan, peluntur iman yg bersahaja, menafsirkan mimpi didalam khayalan membuat mata tidak lelah memandang

Dina ..

dia cantik dengan model muslimah yg tidak mengikuti trendsetter yg memaparka keelokan tubuh dan kemanisan paras wanita

iri? tentu saja, setiap orang pasti akan iri dengan kemanisan dan kemurahan senyumnya. tidak hanya itu lelaki yg ia cintaipun mencintainya, 

Dina ..

Dirimu adalah pelipur lara manis sosokmu membuat setiap orang bahagia ketulusan hatimu membuat orang dapat men-tuhan-kan senyummu, dirimu bagai pengganti alam raya,

Aku tak ingin mengatakan dirimu bidadari karena bidadari tempatnya bukan ditengah pribumi, ntahlah mungki kau adalah kiriman tuhan yg berharga

Dina ..

dirimu bagaikan setetes madu didalam bunga dan setetes embun di atas daun, tutur bahasamu melunturkan ku dalam kesetiaan, membuat ku melongsorkan sedih didada, kecantikanmu yg dari dalam hati membuat semua mata memandang

karakter  yg tidak biasa dideskripsikan dengan 160 karakter saja

dan tak akan biasa terlukiskan ..

smoke smoke smoke

kenapa aku merokok? kenapa seseorang lebih tenang bersama rokok minuman dan hal lainnya?

"menurut kami, kami terlalu kesepian akan hal itu walau pada kenyataannya kami memasang wajah senang tanpa beban"
ini bukan karena kami "CAN'T KEEP OURSELF BUT WE MORE COMFORTABLE WITH IT"
kenapa tidak berjalan dijalan tuhan dengan menjauhi itu semua?
karena beberapa faktor mungkin ..
http://www.anneahira.com/alasan-merokok.htm
disini mungkin dapat dijelaskan mengapa kami merokok, iya faktor lingkungan, kesepian, broken home atau pun ingatan masalalu yg hanya lupa sesaat jika merokok http://nationalgeographic.co.id/berita/2011/05/kenapa-orang-merokok
link diatas juga menyebutkan faktor mengapa orang merokok

salah satu faktor mengapa seseorang anak respect akan rokok

menurut kami yang hanya mengerti kami hanya sebatang rokok dan segelas beer --'

dengan alasan kami tidak ada tujuan akan sesuatu yg menurut kami benar, dan lingkunganpun menjadi pendukung dari ketidak seleranya kami, mungkin kami telah kecanduan nikotil yg akan membuat kami tidak merasa lapar dan dapan membuat orang tenang dan dapat menyebabkan kegemukan sehingga dapat menyebabkan penyempitan pembulu darah dan akhirnya membuat kami kecanduan akan hal itu,

Mungkin karna ini aku mencoba berhenti

dan bukan tidak mungkin aku kembali disisi kelam :)

just poetry ^^

sang penghalang kejenuhan
dirimu seakan jauh dari keramaian
tapi tidak membuat dirimu sepi
dirimu seakan menjadi api kehidupan
tapi tidak memanaskan hati
dan membuat aku jauh darimu
  sang penghalang kejenuhan
  seakan luput dari jangkauan 
  seakan jauh dari bayangan
  seakan tak tersentuh oleh tangan
  dan hilang dalam gelap malam
sang penghalang kejenuhan
adakah terpintas dibenakmu tentang masalalu kelam?
adakah disetiap langkahmu sebuah penyesalan
bagai ombak yg tetap tenang meski diterjang badai
bagai angin yg menabrak sebuah pohon
  sang penghalang kejenuhan
  temani aku didalam sepi
  tabrakan aku dalam sunyi
  berikan aku sesuap harapan suci
 dan jangan biarkan aku menanti